Being Black has to arguably be the most
complex things to be in America.. anywhere. You are born into a
society where there is an underlying hatred, envy, fear, confusion
towards people of a darker complexion. When I was younger, it seemed
so ludicrous to me that simply because my skin pigment was a few
shades darker then the next person I was subject to discrimination.
This was my mindset as a young child, before I even began to learn of
the horrific institution of slavery and then later, the civil rights
movement. To be black means to sometimes be so overwhelmed with the
state of racism in our society that you decide that it might actually
be easier to simply ignore it.
To be black means walking into clothing
store and walk slowly and always make sure you're in view of a
sales-worker to ensure that they don't think you'll steal from them. To be black means speaking in the
clearest way possible to your white counterparts so that they do not
think you're uneducated. Being a black woman means speaking softly to
other white women so that you do not intimidate them with your
“aggression”. Being a black woman means having to be the only
race that is asked to have their hair touched. Being a black woman
means bleaching your skin because successful black women that you
admire do not believe their skin is beautiful. It means sewing in the
hair of a horse's tail so that you may conform to the European
standard of beauty – because that is the only acceptable form of
beauty. It means having to accept the term “exotic” as a
compliment for being a beautiful black woman. It means claiming to be
mixed with any other race to escape your blackness, because
essentially we are taught to believe that anything is better than
being a black person in America.
Although, as I began to learn more
about the world that we live in, I began to learn more about myself
as well. To be a black no longer had a negative connotation to
myself. To be black meant to have beautiful skin that stayed youthful
and supple until old age. To be black meant having long, thick, full
hair. To be black meant being descendants of Kings and Queens. Being
black meant knowing values such as discipline and respect towards our
elders. Being black meant learning how to be resilient from a young
age because we had no choice. Being black means working hard to
succeed and enjoying the fruits of our labor because we earned it and
were not handed it on a silver spoon. Being black means being
beautiful both inside and out -- let no one's insecurity and self hatred tell you otherwise.